9 April 2017: Yesterday afternoon I was in bed, watching series on my laptop, drifting in and out of a nap. “Wow,” I thought, “sleeping in on a Saturday is so nice.” Then I thought “It would be so much better if there was someone here with me…” I’ve seen several tweets about “craving cuddles”Continue reading “I want you here, but really I don’t want anyone here at all. You know?”
Category Archives: Rants and Feelings
"What are your deal breakers?"
Someone asked me what my deal breakers were when it comes to relationships, and I didn’t know how to answer. I quickly said something about how you can never be sure what you don’t want, and so I can only say I wouldn’t want to deal with whatever type of person I didn’t get alongContinue reading “"What are your deal breakers?"”
[Review] The Perfect Find – Tia Williams
In The Perfect Find, Tia Williams gives us the story of Jenna, a former top fashion editor who finds herself out of work, out of love and out of place in a world where gifs are hot currency (even if, to her, they are “like bad acid trip hallucinations”) and magazines are losing ground toContinue reading “[Review] The Perfect Find – Tia Williams”
I am Not Looking Forward to the December Holidays…
Each year, around the 30th of November, I start to feel this sense of doom creeping up on me. School is out, all the sisters are home, our friends have gone away with their families, we are eating more out of pure boredom, and there is no wi-fi. It’s bleak. This end-of-year dread is compoundedContinue reading “I am Not Looking Forward to the December Holidays…”
[Review]: "Dis Koue Kos, Skat" – Marita van der Vyver
One would think that a book made up entirely of one-sided correspondence would be tedious and uninteresting. But in Dis Koue Kos, Skat Marita van der Vyver does such a wonderful job of building nuanced characters, and introducing them to us through the eyes of the protagonist, that it does not matter that none ofContinue reading “[Review]: "Dis Koue Kos, Skat" – Marita van der Vyver”
Craving Intimacy
As a rule, I avoid close interaction with people, especially those I don’t know. But it turns out keeping people at a physical and psychological arm’s length is not the best strategy for survival as a human being. There is a lot to be said for the simple but intense experience of touch: a brushContinue reading “Craving Intimacy”
I Thought He Liked Me. (In which I use the word "feel" way too many times.)
[Scroll to the bottom for the tl;dr summary] It started, as millennials’ relationship stories usually do, with a Facebook post. I liked a status update of his, and waited to see if he would initiate conversation. He did, and for the next three months I tried to get to know him and potentially start aContinue reading “I Thought He Liked Me. (In which I use the word "feel" way too many times.)”
Throwaway thoughts on sharing feelings with boys
I’ve been thinking this week about how much I struggle to articulate my feelings because I am afraid of rejection. In all my relationships, I never want to be the one who feels too much or too obviously, because I don’t want to be judged or misunderstood. It’s the reason I am very slow toContinue reading “Throwaway thoughts on sharing feelings with boys”
I think things are getting out of hand (or: "I am literally always on the brink of tears. Send help.")
It’s been one of those weeks. The days went by in a dull, uninspiring blur; school was suffocating me; I felt like I had no direction in life; I thought my image needed a serious revamp and I was generally feeling very “bleh.” I went from having the urge to go out and get newContinue reading “I think things are getting out of hand (or: "I am literally always on the brink of tears. Send help.")”
Where I am now
I started blogging because I had thoughts and opinions which I felt had to be put out into the public domain. I wanted to share my ideas with whoever would understand where I was coming from. I wanted to write. 2010 was an exciting time: blogs were becoming popular, and the possibilities were endless. TheContinue reading “Where I am now”
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